I don’t know why my family has to be so hard on me as if I’m not hard enough on myself. Look me in the eye and tell me that I have not yet received a bachelor’s degree in 7 years because I’m not trying hard enough. Like I’m racking up 7 years of loan debt because I just feel like it. I barely graduated high school.
I know I’m not stupid. I just can’t learn and memorize useless boring shit and do school like everyone else. I hate school. Always have since I was little. So really putting the guilt trip on me that everyone will be so disappointed in me and that I can do better isn’t really helping. I can’t do this. The school system is not designed for everyone. It can’t be because everyone is different. It’s just the most accepted way that people learn. All this information that people pay thousands for can be learned on the internet at your own pace.
I am a musician god damnit. A really fucking good one. Having a degree will help me in no way with my endeavors. They don’t hear degrees in blind auditions. They hear YOU. You don’t sit down with a #2 pencil and take a standardized test.
I am so sorry for this rant. I know I’m never on here but really I have no one to rant to or shoulders to cry on so this is pretty much it.
I AM PREPARED
I made sure to shave my legs so that when this day came I could wear leggings. Finally I’m living life as it was meant to be lived. PANTS FREE!!!
I WOULD HIT IT SO HARD FOREVER
I want to blog.
My gods, how I woukd hit that.
I haven’t tumbled in ages. Too much life going on. I can’t sleep and when I do I wake up. Usually nightmares too. I just wanna have a dream. Happy or wacky I don’t even care. Sorry to push my crazy on you all.
I think I’m gonna buy the full version of World of Goo on my phone. I love that game.